10 Days of Silence

It’s been a few months since I’ve been online.

To begin with, it was simply because life was busy. But, as the days went by, I realised I needed space to reflect, to recenter, to make sure that what I was sharing was coming from a place of compassion with no ego or agenda.
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And then, as the weeks went by, I realised I needed stillness in preparation for my first Vipassana course — a 10 day silent retreat with 12+ hours of meditation a day.
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No talking. No eye contact. No writing or reading or technology. Nowhere to run. No place to hide.
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I finished the course this morning.

It was one of the most brutal and beautiful experiences of my life.
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Honestly, right now it feels like my soul has been dragged through broken glass and I don’t know if there are words to capture this path I have started walking.
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But I do know that once you have felt love vibrate through every cell of your body, you are never, ever the same.
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There was nothing woo woo or mystical or supernatural about it. No guru to worship. No shaman with magic potions.
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There was just your body and your breath and the realisation that with the rise and fall of each inhale and each exhale, you are changing.

Healing.

Growing.
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And as you feel the soft, subtle sensations of your body, you begin to understand the thought patterns of your mind.

To untangle a thousand tiny knots of suffering in your heart.

To slowly, gently, mindfully unlearn your way back to love.

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